A few minutes have passed as I find myself sitting here, staring at the white screen. The dialogue doesn’t flow easily and while I want to write, I feel a loss for the words that don’t seem to come across my lips and instead it is silence that is embracing me.
I went to bed with another heavy heart, knowing that life changed once more. The world as we know it was no more, but would bring more changes to adapt to, more for some and less for others who are not that close. I didn’t sleep all that well. We lost a loved one yesterday, a husband, a father, brother, uncle and friend. He was not one of my immediate family members by blood, but a family member in spirit and to someone close to me. I recall moments spent together and I’m lucky to have known this wonderful man. I’m not going to say much about it, other than my heart and prayers are with the family during this tough time, that they may find peace and strength for the days ahead. To feel consoled in knowing that that the suffering is over, a better place awaits and that one day we will meet again. Until that day comes, he remains and lives within our hearts….RIP.
I feel the push and the constant pull of the universe, trying to guide and show me the way for my own future. Far too many things have happened recently, making it impossible to ignore and dismiss the signs occuring almost daily. I’m reminded that “Life is short”, that we have to “Play hard” to win and that without “Pain there is no gain”. I feel as if I have been sitting on the sidelines, watching my life pass me in a daze. With one thing for certain and I haven’t been an active player who is in charge or takes action. “What’s meant to be, will be” somehow no longer serves my purpose as I’m starting to get into the game and take a few steps for change and a life that is more fulfilled and in line with my higher self. Sometimes even the universe needs a little jump start as it may show us the way but the actual “Doing it” and “Making it happen” part is up to us. I can’t say that I’m playing hard just yet, but I have taken a few swings and it feels good. I feel empowered and strong, in charge of my destiny and I feel I am the director of my journey. Nobody else anymore.
Whether I’m pep talking myself or whatever else might be going on, today I step up to the plate and resist much when it comes to how my story is going to end. I have a voice to use if it differs in any way from the fairytale that lives within me. I might be small, insignificant and powerless in the grand scheme of what will be, I might have little control when it comes to the bigger influences and perhaps I’m rendered powerless, but I’m trying. I believe in the silver lining and the happy ending.
Life is short – Play hard and resist much (Fight)