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When the past has nothing new to say

Life provides us with plenty of experiences, some good and some bad, they consist of moments that turn into memories that lift our hearts or haunt our dreams. Whenever I need a little pick me up, I rely in the beauty of recalling one of those special moments as they magically produce a smile on my face. But what about the not so pleasant moments that we contemplate over and over? The ones that hold us captive and instead of a smile produce regrets that creep back into our mind, keeping us up at night.

I consider myself lucky that I was never much a dweller of the past, although I’m not a stranger to it. I think we all know a certain amount of regret and course I would do some things differently if I had the chance to do them again, but I also have learned to give myself credit. To be forgiving of what might be viewed as a mistake in later life, to accept the choices I made and to realize that I did the best to my ability at that time. Before I found myself wondering from time to time about that famous “What if”. A cruel way of the mind to entertain and torture ourselves with nothing but the same outcome and with nothing that would ever change. I reminisced about what could have been, how my life could have turned out if I only had….????
After the initial Catalyst and life jolting me awake with what I call “My transformation phase” it came to mind that something had changed. I was no longer interested by my past and the hold it once held over me subsided. I accepted what was and left the past where it belonged. As a teacher that taught it’s lessons and one that would never have anything new to say again. I felt as if a burden was lifted, free with a load lightened, for the first time I realized how weighted down I had been carrying the past around in all of those years. The past will always be a part of me, but I’m no longer interested in the regrets it held for me. I believe that everything is unfolding exactly how it is meant to be, all experiences included, good and bad. Special moments will remain while I have waived goodbye to the self destroying, unhealthy moments that once haunted my dreams.

My wish for you is to realize the worth of your past and allow it to be whatever you see fit for yourself.



I'm a dreamer and hopeless romantic who believes that there is always a silver lining to everything. Now, inspired by the simple life, I have learned that less is more and that we find magic all around us if we take the time to notice. Life is a journey and a process that is ever changing. We are constantly evolving in the matter of who we are as we align our stars and shed a past no longer in line with our highest self. I don't easily fit conventional norms, not because I'm a rebel, but because of resenting the pull that threatens to take me away from my true beliefs and my unique personal identity. I support the power of "Choice" and the ability for us to be the architects of our own lives. Some of these choices should have something a little wild about them as they form the moments that forever stay edged in our memory and make our hearts beat with wonder. Nobody will remember the ordinary. For myself, I'm a warrior who has fallen many times, who has gone through trails an tribulations and who is no stranger to adversity. After all, my choice remains clear, to get back up and stand stronger than ever. To recognize that it often takes our darkest moments to mold us into who we were meant to be. I have learned to trust the process and stay positive through the challenges. I trust it to be the only way to prevent my heart from hardening and allowing bitterness to creep in. I believe in the power of "NOW" as it is the only moment we truly ever have. The past is gone, unchangeable and the future hasn't happened yet. All we can impact is the current moment. Everything starts with a choice and hopefully with one that has something wild about it and may even scare you to death to execute. DO IT...I promise you won't regret it. This blog is my voice to share my Journey. If I could describe this adventure in short, I would call it "Spiritual awakening" with a yearning for "Freedom" and going after the things that truly matter. To seek a less complicated life that is stripped down from the many obligations and responsibilities that often tie us down. For me it is a life free of rules and regulations, one that allows me to escape the must expectations while jumping off the hamster wheel that is spinning faster all the time. To be on my own time and live each day to the fullest, to make it all slow down by banishing routine and unleashing my creativity/artistic values in an effort to entertain whatever subject comes to mind. And if lucky, to perhaps offer a different view to my readers, one that speaks to your soul vs. the demands of what society might expect. It is one that empowers you to be your unique self and follow the beat of your own drum. I am dreaming big as I trail blaze the path to a new life and becoming a storyteller. I find my inspiration in the little things in life, in Mother Nature and on the trail that provides the adventures and the backdrop for a book someday. My hope is to inspire "Courage" in others who might find themselves on the brink of taking that first step. This blog serves as a foundation for my collection of personal thoughts, opinions and experiences and by no means am I an expert on any topics mentioned. To my readers I would say that the universe connects us by a common thread, we all search and we all have something to say. We don't always have to meet in person to share a strong bond and people enter our path for a reason. Some stay for a short time and serve their purpose, while others teach us a lesson and help us become stronger through experience. And a few special ones remain as the treasures we hold dear over a lifetime and touch our hearts beyond means. In whatever way we are meant to be, I thank you for crossing my path and for stopping by. I hope that I have left you inspired, full of wonder and with a few "Wild Choices" to make....Hugs XO

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