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Bullet Train to nowhere…

I was in my forties when I first started to question my life. Everything I had come to know over the years seemed foreign and no longer effective. I felt a void, a big empty hole and “SOMETHING”, whatever that might have been, just didn’t feel right anymore. My life was consumed with day to day tasks and chores begging to be accomplished but yielding little to no joy. Boring and downright stagnant, mundane at it’s best, I was stuck in a routine. I felt tired of the daily rut, with weeks, months, yes even years going by with little change. What remained were not enough special moments to look back onto and too few memories that truly made me feel alive. Everything became a blur of wasted time, missed opportunities and life had become predictable. Somewhere along those lines I lost the concept of time and working towards a goal. I merely existed while contributing my part to society like a well programmed robot. I don’t know how long I was stuck in this trance-like state of mind without ever realizing how lost I really was. Always on somebody else’s clock with never enough time for what I would consider a healthy work-life balance. I didn’t know any different and therefore accepted that it was part of life. I didn’t question how lucky I was if I managed to squeeze out a little time for myself. How could I, I wasn’t even aware and conscious of what was going on. It was just the way it was. 

But then, that “SOMETHING”‘changed and I was unable to pinpoint what was missing, what needed to change and what I should even search for. All I knew was that at some point over the past weeks, months and years, I had begun to question just about everything. 

I questioned if I had allowed myself to dream all this time or was I finally just waking up from a life long state of dreaming! What had changed for my perception to shift? As questions were left unanswered, one thing did suddenly hit me and like a freight train it became painfully obvious….
                                   … that with the speed of a bullet train, my life was heading into nowhere….




I'm a dreamer and hopeless romantic who believes that there is always a silver lining to everything. Now, inspired by the simple life, I have learned that less is more and that we find magic all around us if we take the time to notice. Life is a journey and a process that is ever changing. We are constantly evolving in the matter of who we are as we align our stars and shed a past no longer in line with our highest self. I don't easily fit conventional norms, not because I'm a rebel, but because of resenting the pull that threatens to take me away from my true beliefs and my unique personal identity. I support the power of "Choice" and the ability for us to be the architects of our own lives. Some of these choices should have something a little wild about them as they form the moments that forever stay edged in our memory and make our hearts beat with wonder. Nobody will remember the ordinary. For myself, I'm a warrior who has fallen many times, who has gone through trails an tribulations and who is no stranger to adversity. After all, my choice remains clear, to get back up and stand stronger than ever. To recognize that it often takes our darkest moments to mold us into who we were meant to be. I have learned to trust the process and stay positive through the challenges. I trust it to be the only way to prevent my heart from hardening and allowing bitterness to creep in. I believe in the power of "NOW" as it is the only moment we truly ever have. The past is gone, unchangeable and the future hasn't happened yet. All we can impact is the current moment. Everything starts with a choice and hopefully with one that has something wild about it and may even scare you to death to execute. DO IT...I promise you won't regret it. This blog is my voice to share my Journey. If I could describe this adventure in short, I would call it "Spiritual awakening" with a yearning for "Freedom" and going after the things that truly matter. To seek a less complicated life that is stripped down from the many obligations and responsibilities that often tie us down. For me it is a life free of rules and regulations, one that allows me to escape the must expectations while jumping off the hamster wheel that is spinning faster all the time. To be on my own time and live each day to the fullest, to make it all slow down by banishing routine and unleashing my creativity/artistic values in an effort to entertain whatever subject comes to mind. And if lucky, to perhaps offer a different view to my readers, one that speaks to your soul vs. the demands of what society might expect. It is one that empowers you to be your unique self and follow the beat of your own drum. I am dreaming big as I trail blaze the path to a new life and becoming a storyteller. I find my inspiration in the little things in life, in Mother Nature and on the trail that provides the adventures and the backdrop for a book someday. My hope is to inspire "Courage" in others who might find themselves on the brink of taking that first step. This blog serves as a foundation for my collection of personal thoughts, opinions and experiences and by no means am I an expert on any topics mentioned. To my readers I would say that the universe connects us by a common thread, we all search and we all have something to say. We don't always have to meet in person to share a strong bond and people enter our path for a reason. Some stay for a short time and serve their purpose, while others teach us a lesson and help us become stronger through experience. And a few special ones remain as the treasures we hold dear over a lifetime and touch our hearts beyond means. In whatever way we are meant to be, I thank you for crossing my path and for stopping by. I hope that I have left you inspired, full of wonder and with a few "Wild Choices" to make....Hugs XO

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